Proud GenX Mama Birthing Story

A story time of introspection as a mother on the anniversary day of birthing my third child. This was a very memorable experience, one that cannot ever be forgotten.  Sharing here some of my vulnerable 1999 story💞

There are ways to possibly heal if a miscarriage threatens!  Herbal medicine brought me hope for the future in the power of healing.  This past experience helped me to grow tremendously into who I am today.

For those who may be interested in the healing protocol I used during my pregnancy, here is a special link share I created🌬️

References:

https://natural-fertility-info.com/reproductive-system-support-for-women-with-wild-yam

https://drvegan.com/pages/wild-yam

ps>>Apologies for my cat in beginning!  Ironically she loves Faith😉

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Chapters

• 3:52 Dreadlock days, becoming mother of 3
• 6:46 Headed into labor room w/herbs & crytals
• 9:59 Hematoma arose next day from medical negligence
• 12:00 Consumed herbal medicine to heal my miscarriage
• 14:06 Going off to college
• 16:27 Traveling around the world
• 19:04 Sit together for peace & breathe

Transcript

1:02

Hello and welcome, beautiful, lovely souls. Thank you for being here today. This is a special day. So as a mother, I decided I have to talk about being a mom and tell a story about something that is relevant for my child on this day, a birthday, which is my daughter Faith Angelina's birthday. She's turning 26 today, and I am so very grateful for her. I'm a proud mama and I'm a Gen Xer. So this is one mother's story. This is a time of introspection as a mother on the anniversary day of birthing my child. So many mothers, when it's their child's birthday, it's very special time for them as well, and they may think about their birth experience that day. They may think about their pregnancy that day. They're certainly going to reach out to their child and it's a very special day as a mother, but also for that child, for their birthday. And this is a very, I want to use the word ironic, but a very interesting birthday that will probably never happen again because if you do the numbers, my daughter, faith is turning 26 today. So she was born in 1999, July 21st, 1999, which is 10 days before I turned 26. So she is the same age right now that when I was about to give birth to her actual due date was July 19th. So she was two days late. And I just want to give another elaboration that I segue off of my blog, which I love doing and give a little story about that day. My pregnancy, by the way, was a very difficult one, and I'm going to go into that a little bit because she almost did not come into this world, and that is another story that I'm going to tell a little bit about. I had long dreadlocks when I was pregnant with Faith, and I started them maybe right before I got pregnant with her. I think it was, yeah, I think it was right before my pregnancy began. I started my dreads. My hair was already long, but I'd been thinking about it for a while. I had also her two older brothers that were toddlers at the time. Eric was three and Adam was two. And here I am pregnant with my third child. Yes, it was a surprise. And so at the time I was at home about to give birth, I knew that my due date had just passed. I was home with my boys. I was in Sacramento, California at the time, which is where I was raised for most of my childhood and teenage years. And I was going into labor and my husband was out working his job and he worked very hard and I of course called him. I don't think we had cell phones at the time. Actually, no, this is 1999, and there were pagers, beepers, right? Remember that? No cell phone. So I was, I guess paging him or beeping him. I don't remember. It must've been something like that. And then he would have to go to a phone or find a phone. We had lots of payphones around and he was going to get there as soon as possible. But I was very confident because at the time I had already learned a lot about herbs and nutrition, and I was very much into using my herbs and actually had really gained a lot of faith in herbalism during this pregnancy because how they had saved the pregnancy and how miraculously there was no longer a problem or a threat to having a miscarriage. So I really was full force like, wow, herbs really work. They're really magical. And I had all my herbs that I was taking, getting ready that I'd researched and getting ready to take during my labor and during the delivery and everything that I was going to be set with my herbal medicine. And I didn't want to take anything synthetic. So it got a time where my husband finally got home and I'd been in labor all day long and it's like five o'clock and there's tons of traffic. It's Sacramento, and back then everybody's working at five o'clock and off work. So we're going to the hospital. I wasn't fortunate enough to have a midwife yet. I would've loved to, but we did not for various reasons. And so we were going to the hospital and I get to the hospital. Here I am with my long dreadlocks, all my herbs, my tinctures, my crystals, all this stuff, and they're like, oh gosh, rolling their eyes. And they literally did not let the whole process to just happen naturally. That's how bad it is at some hospitals. I got there, they checked me, the nurses and told me, oh gosh, you're ready to have this baby. Okay. So I got there probably like five 15. Yeah, she was born at six. So maybe Tony did get there to pick me up before because we were in traffic for probably half hour. We weren't too far from the hospital, but I just remember being in traffic. So I think it was probably longer than 15 minutes in the car. I remember that car ride was not nice, and my dad, I believe, had stopped by to get the boys, so he had my boys. And so it was just Tony and I and we showed up and then my dad when we got there and they checked me and they were like, oh, you're like, you're ready. You can start pushing soon. So it's not even five 30. And I'm going into full on labor starting to push, and then they're running around frantically because And I'm sure this is still to this day probably truth that a doctor has to be in the hospital room to deliver the baby or assist in delivering the baby for the mother, which is absolute bullshit. So there's multiple nurses there. They're totally capable. I'm totally capable. This is my third child, and they literally were trying to stall and it is like they thought a lawsuit was going to happen or something. I don't know what the deal was, but I'm full on just trying to have my baby here, and they're, my mom told me afterwards, because I'm not down there looking at what's going on, but the nurses are covering around me and they're kind of almost holding her in, not letting her completely come out naturally. And so she finally came out at 6:00 PM on the dot. And then what I found out, well, first of all, she was, there was a little distressed, and she was either born, I don't think she was born in the sack. I think my sack actually broke with her, which a couple of my pregnancies during labor, my sack did not break. My fourth child, actually, she was born in the sack or they broke the sac right as she was coming out. I can't remember, but it was a messy mess. And so she came out and then maybe not immediately, but it was right after we had left, I think they actually let me leave that night because I was taking all my herbs. I wasn't happy with them helping me. I knew they weren't taking care of me. I just wanted to get the fuck home and wanted to get out of there. I didn't even stay overnight. I'm pretty sure we got to go home that night or maybe the next morning, I don't remember, but I wasn't even there 24 hours right after we got home, within 24 hours, I started noticing that something was happening to the top of her head. She ended up getting this hematoma on the top of her head and I researched it, and what it was was it's almost like a bruising. There's trauma from just basically a natural process not happening. And it was because they were freaking holding her back from just coming out. She was just ready to come out. So it just, yeah, after that I was like, I never, I mean, I didn't think I was going to have another child, but I did eight years later and I was like, no, I'm definitely not having a hospital birth again. I am so done. So anyways, I just wanted to give that little birthing story. It was very quick. She was just two days late and she was seven, seven pounds, five ounces. She was my smallest child. Seven 11 was my first child a and yeah, so I was a little dreadlock hippie mama with my little baby and my two little boys, Eric had, wait, no, Eric was four when she was born. So yeah, Adam had just turned three and Eric was four, so a three and 4-year-old. But when I first got pregnant with her, Eric was just turning three and Adam was still two. So anyways, yes, it's a time for introspection for mothers on the anniversary day of their child's birth, and so thank you for listening to my little birthing experience there. Hope it wasn't too long. I tried to keep it brief. Faith is very, very special to me. She is a miracle from God through the plant medicine that I took, a herbs that I consumed and the many prayers that literally saved her life during this pregnancy. Out of my four successful pregnancies, she was one that I almost lost. Hence, she's my miracle girl. Personally, any pregnancy can be scary as fuck. Many miscarriages can happen suddenly. Mine was a threatened miscarriage and this pregnancy was fortunately able to be saved by my 20th week, which is halfway through our placenta. I said our, because it's something you share with your baby, had been healed up back intact. The initial ultrasounds had showed different diagnoses where either the placenta was being pushed out from my uterus by a fibroid that was growing, or there was a tear from a stressor ripping the placenta away from my uterine wall, an injury per se. So I'm not sure it could have been either of these things. I kind of feel like I know, but I'm not going to get into that anymore. And all I can say is I am so proud to be her mother. She was such a fighter from the start. An overachiever is an understatement. Everything she does appears to the outer world to be done with grace and stability. I know this must be felt and dealt with on an inner level for her, hoping that she never has to feel too much pressure and always finding hope and unveiling of her way forward. Since she was a little girl, faith struggled with her own words as her two older brothers spoke everything for her. Then one day something clicked and her genius was seen. She skipped right on out of Waldorf school where she wasn't being challenged enough, skipping fifth grade altogether, then straight a's ahead and all the way into being valedictorian of her senior class proceeding into being accepted into 12 universities. The furthest one was in Vancouver, and that was her first choice. Those kids that they want to not go too far, some of them, but they want to be far enough. That's kind of what I've seen. I feel like my kids are really proud to be Californians, to be born in California and that they want to stay either in California or close to it, and I love that. So I respect that she thought she wanted to go to Vancouver, and I believe that was the furthest away university that she was accepted to. But I'm glad she didn't go there. So we traveled there to check it out. Thankfully she changed her mind and her next choice was uc, Santa Barbara, which is where she attended and thrived studying abroad her senior year in Spain, then Sweden, when the pandemic hit. She was sent home early, sadly enough for her, but nice for me as her mama to get another month, one more time to be with her, to be with my baby girl at the age right before she hit 21 upon her remote, remote college graduation. Yes. Which really was unfortunate that she didn't get the full on university or college graduation that some people get the ones that were during the pandemic, they were supposed to be remote, so they just were done differently. And her graduation from UCSB was in the environmental studies. That was her bachelor's then she continued her travels this time, was a US tour with one of her BFS for the summer before going to live in Oregon to attend grad school at Lewis and Clark, a private liberal arts college in Portland a few years later. And a few years ago, she then graduated with her master of studies in law from Lewis and Clark's law school's, environmental, natural resources, and energy law program. Since December, 2024, last winter, she has been traveling in South America. This was a dream of hers. She'd been wanting to go to South America and travel for years. And her partner, Dixon, who also wanted to do this, he'd been down there a few times and he was getting pretty fluent in Spanish. She used starting to, she, she's definitely a beginner in Spanish. And now she's intermediate and she's hoping to be fluent someday soon. So they have both been down there since early December. They're doing well and she's learning, exploring, visiting, and growing up more in over eight countries so far there. She hesitates to come back with the state of our homeland. I don't blame her. Former colleagues were laid off soon after she left Portland to travel, which her awesome job did not want to see her go. She was working for, I think it's called Pacific Northwest, and it's like a sustainable energy solutions organization that's in Oregon. They might be branching out beyond Oregon, but I think they are working with some other states. But it's an awesome company organization that she landed her first job related to her field in, and she was really thriving there, but she had stayed there longer than she had even planned on and really wanted to go travel again. She's a world traveler. She's been to, I don't, can't count how many countries looking forward to either being fortunate enough to see her in Argentina at the end of her trip in October, November this year or soon after when she returns. WhatsApp has helped in these times apart sending her so much love and gratitude your way. Faith, Angelina many B-Day blessings to come hugs and kisses. I will put a link to my substack in the show notes if you want to read this blog and see some photos of faith and faith and I. And if you're interested in my wellness protocol that I used during this pregnancy, I'll also put a link to that in the show notes with a few helpful tips that I swear by that may help you or someone you know if a miscarriage is a threat. Thank you so much for listening. I love and appreciate you, and I just want to take a moment to sit in peace for the world right now. It just breaks my heart and I try not to let it consume me or listen every day as to what's happening, but these times are very intense and changing very rapidly. And the good news I always say is that many of us are waking up more, consciousness is being spread, and I have much hope and much love for this planet and for what everyone that's participating in the goodness is doing. So let's just take a moment to give gratitude for what we have and to spread love out from our hearts. And take a deep breath in inhaling deeply all the way down our chakras, all the way down to the base of our spine, holding for a couple of seconds. Visualizing the world that we want to see. And then exhaling out slowly, exhale out everything that is not serving you. Exhale out everything that you don't want anymore. Let it go. Let it go. Sisters and brothers, thank you so much. Until next time, have a beautiful day. Blessings to you.